# Breeze of wind ;

"Yesterday is hitory, tomorrow is mystery, and today is a gift"
That's why it's call 'present'

Thursday, December 15, 2011
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Hi earthlings .

This post would probably express my feelings out perhaps .

I just doesn't know how i feel now .

And i don't even know what do i want .

I stress , depress , sad , hurt enough .

Totally enough .

People knows i don't bias , i side the right side .

Yes , i might get some difficult in between of everything .

But do you think i want ?

Currently , i'm not afraid to let you all know .

This morning , was out with my boyfriend .

And i got the feeling that , i feeling fade towards him .

I even tell him , and tell him it might not be true .

I don't know why , is it the devil doing the ugly job ?

I just thinks that i don't love him as much as i usually do .

I really cried , i craving more kiss from him .

To let myself not to feel that uneasy feelings .

I really wants to cry out loud , and let Lord to save me .

But is it even able to save ?

At the evening , it's like suddenly .

I love my boyfriend alot , and i told him .

IT'S NOT a feeling fade .

It's not !

It's not .

It's not ...

I hope it's really not .

Writing this post let me drop much tears , even now .

I really hope God would help me .

It's not about him , it's about me .

I love him .

I don't know what's my feelings doing .

Why does everything came in together ?

I'm not strong ..

I'm strong enough ..

I'm totally not strong ..

Please save me from the edge , before i would fall down the deep trap .

Now , whatever i wants to do .

Is to die .

It's been so long since i thinking about die .

Because i used to think of die everytime ..

And anything i do .

I wants to MIA 2days , and have a think about everything .

Please don't contact me .

But before i MIA this 2days .

I would write some notes for some of you .

Sebastian (Boyfriend) :

Hi dear . :)

I really thanks you for giving me that lovely piglet for my X'mas .

You're the first guy that buys me X'mas present .

I really appreciate alot .

I love you , deeply .

Truly , i never ever think of cheating on you anymore .

Because you're my Mr . Right .

People said , now my feelings became like that ,

Maybe is because our time is out up soon .

But no , i won't .

I won't ever let this happen .

But just let me cool down for 2days .

Don't contact me , let me think about it and let me decide everything over and over again .

I hope i would find out the answer using this 2days .

I love you alot , wait for me k :)

I wants to make miracle around us .

I wants to make things possible .

It's not the end .

I just want you to be perfect in my eyes .

But you know me , although i put boyfriend first .

But i can't throw my other love ones aside .

I need every of you .

I just hope you won't show faces , attitudes .

I hope you would change this two things because of me .

Because i wants you to bond with my other loves .

I hope you would change .

Don't think too much .

I love you . <3

Samuel (Brother) :

Don't feel sad that you say anything wrong .

Nah you didn't . :)

I just being a crybaby crying for nothing .

Don't think too much okay ?

You're always the best brother i had in my life . :)

Yes , i wasn't really happy of what you done .

You know what ?

Which is got things , and refuse to tell me just that you scared i would felt difficult .

You say you doesn't wants me to be difficult ,

And just wanted to walk away .

But hello ? You're still my close ones .

Seeing you like that , do you think i would just let you walk away like that ?

I wants everyone of you to be happy .

Not sad , moody because of something .

I wants you all to bond and be close .

I understand your feelings .

I hope you understand mine too ..

Emily (Darling) :

Hi darling , looks like i've to pangseh you for two days again .

Sorry okay ? I hope you can forgive me .

Hope you would be fine and also happy always . :)

I hope that no one attitude you too .

If that person attitude and made you moody .

Tell me okay !

I'll be up for you .

But after 2days :)

Sorry , really need a rest this few days . :(

Smile .

Haishan (Bestie) :

Hi bestie , thanks for cheering me up in message when i'm stress .

And do stupid thing to make my laugh although it's not funny at all .

This two days won't be going out because stress ah .

You should know de .

Hais , stay happy . :)

Kelly (Sweetlove) :

Hi sweetlove , i know we're close for a few days and now i need MIA again .

I just abit stress .

Didn't know did you change your attitude not .

Someday i wanna see again haha .

Don't sad over guys okay .

Especially those that made you cry like dog .

Haha ok laaa stay happy :)

Sylvia (Sweetheart) :

Hi sweetheart .

This few days i would emo abit ah .

Sorry , and won't be meeting you .

Hope you'd be fine .

Stay happy , and sorry for the things that i done to you .

I really sorry and guilty .

I didn't know whether you forgive me alr not .

I hope you do , but if haven't .

I understand :)

Seeya soon :)

After this 2days . I would change myself to a new person .

Please wait for me .

And don't contact me ,

Messages i won't reply ,

Calls i won't answer .

And please simply don't call my house or come up my house and find me .

I already said here clearly , give me a break .

For just these days .

Thanks ..

Sunday, December 11, 2011
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Hey ! I'm backkie !

Today dear dear is sick ! Having fever , heart pain :(

Hope he'll be fine tomorrow .

Hmm sad that i quarrel with mum again tomorrow .

Today all the way at amk doing nothing . ._.

Then our legendary chio bu came .

Everyone disiao , i sabo her to play with samuel .

Samuel kp me . HAHA .

But quite funny de lahh , she put NS but see other people notes .

Funny .

Okay i'm going to sleep now :)

Nights ! :)

Friday, December 9, 2011
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Currently at samuel's house .
Ton for a day , haha .
We took photos , camwhore-ing .
Yesterday midnight eat Mac , now waiting for pizza ?
Gosh , fat !!
HAha , having lots of fun here !
At 4plus emily came , awhile then i go sleep .
Tired max .
x.x
Okay i should go eat first , later then go home .
Still got amateurs outingggg !
Okay byeeeeee <3

Thursday, December 8, 2011
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Hey ! Back from outside ! HAHA .

See on top ? My couple sticker with dear dear <3

Today we had fun ? I'm happy everyday .

Get abit sad when people keep calling me auntie .

Damn annoying can ?

Then i cried , gosh i'm a cry baby !

Okay , i'm so awaiting for tomorrow !

Going samuel bro's house to ton with deardear and haishan .

Hope emily would come ?

Hais , my phone . R.I.P :(

Deardear audi cannot play , i should log out :(

Without him , go in also no use !

Alright , i should go to sleep right now !

Seeya tomorrow again !

I guess i would be blogging at samuel house tomorrow bah .

Teehee ! Nightz ! <:

Wednesday, December 7, 2011
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Camwhore after my hair is perm-ed ! :)

Hey ! I'm back from a day of fun .

See all those photos ?

Yeah i camwhore after my hair perm .

Issit really look weird ? :(

Please give me comments .

Today went to compass point for pro 2 .

Then headed to samuel's house to play .

We watch movie and alot .

Today saw samuel's true image .

He's a very hyper , and horny guy that rapes guy !!!!!!

Anyway , today dear dear tio rape by samuel too .

HAHAH , i laugh at there .

So fucking funny , if you all were there to see !

Alright , i'm tired .

Should have a hot shower and headed to bed .

We're tonning at samuel's house on friday !!

Awaiting !

Should stop here , woohoo . <3

Tuesday, December 6, 2011
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Hey yo ! I just permed my hair yo !

No photo yet k .

Next post i promise i'll post the photo .

Gosh , sorry that i didn't post yesterday .

Yesterday went out with dear , samuel , james , haishan .

Only we five .

Kns , but nevermind . We played quite fun .

Anyway , samuel's first kiss is gone to james !

HAHAH . Joke of the day yesterday seriously .

Okay i stop here .

Currently my mood is .

MISS MY DEAR . T^T

Monday, December 5, 2011
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Hey morning everyone !

It's 6plus now in the morning , i woke up so early .

Was abit angry at dear dear that he sleep at 5plus !

Must control him alr . @_@

Later going dover to find mummy , because she rebonding hair .

So i pei her , LOL .

So i think that she no people can talk to , so she want me go !

Dear is so caring , still ask me whether i got money to top up ezlink anot .

But everytime i find my mum and dad i always take cab they pay de mah .

Haha , anyway he's still very caring . <3

I will be back at amk around 3plus .

Hmm , so bored now .

Stop till here first bah .

Byeeeeee . :)

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Currently at GSC with dear dear and haishan .
Heehee , so sian now .
Just finish l4d-ing .
Stupid audi cannot play , -'-
Where should i go later ? Now 8:30 le . ._.
I don't want go home so early , but deardear need reach home early !!
Okay nvm . Sadded .
Today morning made a video for him , hope he really like it .
Because i just love him too much ! XD
Opps , i guess he must be peeking .
But not lah , he playing his angry birddddd .
LOL . Okay i later then post when i reach home . ^^
Byeeeeeeeeeee . <:

Sunday, December 4, 2011
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Yooohoooo ~ Back from outside again .

Teehee , another day with dear .

Today things wasn't gone very right for me and her ,

And and also for james and zhixian .

Today is like couple conflicts day . -.-

Like seriously ah , today i keep on quarreling with dear .

I hope it'll all be fine after today 12 ! ^_^

Hmm , wonder is deardear back home ! ;/

He haven't call me .

Today i just say hi to someone he don't like , then he angry .

Meh , i know i'm wrong i think .

But because i high mah .

So sad , today i cried back he didn't realized ! T^T

Kelly and emily went to arcade and find us today .

Whole group high . :D

So good , heehee .

Today zhixian cried , because she quarrel with james .

Don't know wth happen to them .

Anyway , saw the heart shape i post on top ? ^^

Is from dear , he use 4straws to make that heart out .

I can see it's hard , but he still never stop doing .

Love it so muchhhhhhyyyyy !

I wants to meet him tomorrow again <3

Miss him many many .

K he calling me for chat alr , post again tomorrow ! <3

Buaiiiiii . :)

Saturday, December 3, 2011
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Back to post for awhile .

Since i got nothing to do , well .

I already tried my very best to give in everything .

Since it's my fault , then i just try talk to you nicely and everything .

One thing i dislike is , i hate talking to you when you just wake up .

It takes an hour for you to chill .

Wtf , i seriously don't know what to do .

I did nothing wrong .

Do you even understand how i feel ? Like seriously .

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This photo was took yesterday .

He wear formal , so handsome . <3

Anyway , he's so handsome whatever he wear .

Even he's naked . XD

Hey everybody ! Just wake up not long .

Chat with kelly on facebook gossiping , HAHA .

My daily life is gossip . ^^

Then morning dear call me , we didn't chat much .

Because i saw his post .

I know he's jealous ..

But what can i do sia , i just asking for job ah .

Also not chatting for long with him .

Nvm bah . Since he also say ' don't say is gan kor or gan di '

He's jealous means he's jealous .

Say so much things also no use .

I really don't know what to do ah .

He call me and say don't disturb me first .

I know i doesn't wants to hang up , but instead i say okay .

Fml , i regret hanging up the phone .

I wants to talk to him , alot alot .

Today don't know will meet who at AMK .

I just felt bored easily this few days .

Today never go service again , because i woke up at 10plus .

By that time they already worshiping .

Yesterday dream of the whole Tampanies mall got zombie .

All l4d zombie , i still remember i can fly . -_-

So lame .

I wants to tell dear ..

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU !!

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Today can so call another fun day just gone ?

Haha , anyway . Now on phone with samuel and james .

Talking and gossip .

So sad dear wasn't on phone with me . :(

But nevermind , tomorrow can meet him again .

Tomorrow got service , not sure can be able to make it not . ;/

But i hope i can ah , like so long bo go alr . ._.

I don't know what's this feeling ah .

I wanna workkkkkk ! :D

Okay tomorrow going out again . Although today very little people .

But i hope tomorrow got more !

Yay , should meet up kenneth and ethel they all also . ^^

Kk i go back my call first , because i putting my phone aside .

Then samuel kp-ing alr .

Kbyeeeeeeeee . ;P

WAIT WAIT .

Dear i love you . <3

Friday, December 2, 2011
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100 reasons why i love you ! :)

1) For being patient to me .

2) For your love .

3) For making me comfortable around you .

4) For being true to yourself .

5) For being my morning buddy ! ^_^

6) For being my deardear .

7) For being the sweetest person that i know !

8) For your comforting hugs .

9) For holding my hands .

10) For making my laugh .

11) For being my greatest blessings .

12) For accepting me and everything that i am .

13) For sharing your life with me .

14) Allowing me to share my life to you .

15) For sharing our dreams to each other .

16) For holding me when i cry .

17) For let me pour everything out to you .

18) For listening to me when i need to talk .

19) For being there for me .

20) For everything that you are .

21) For assuring that everything is okay .

22) For standing with me when it rains .

23) For the little things that you do .

24) For being an angel to me .

25) For being always true to the words you said .

26) For treating me well .

27) For keeping me warm when i'm cold .

28) Because you made me smile .

29) Because you made me happy .

30) Because you made me feel complete with you .

31) Because you made me want no one else in the world .

32) Because you made me feel special .

33) Because i can tell everything to you .

34) Because you sing to me ! ^^

35) You behave silly to me !

36) Because you made me feel like i'm truly part of your family .

37) Because you made my life wonderful by being part of it .

38) Because you taught me the meaning of unconditional love .

39) Because you never fail to brighten up my day .

40) Because you made me feel good about myself .

41) Because you made me proud of you .

42) Because you made me proud of being yours .

43) Because you're everything that i hope for , and even more .

44) You're an artist that added colour in my life .

45) Because you make it so easy for me to love you .

46) Because you made me laugh when i want to cry .

47) Because you take good care of me .

48) When i'm sick , you bring porridge all the way to my house .

49) Even if you say you're not perfect , to me you are .

50) Because you're worth to let me wait .

51) Because i thinks that you're the best pumper in the whole wide world !

52) You made me feel important .

53) You bring out the best in me .

54) Because being with you , everything is just perfect .

55) You believe in me .

56) Because there's no reason not to .

57) You always never fail to make my silly smile on my face .

58) You'll still listen when i'm disappoint and angry .

59) Because you still understand my feelings no matter how selfish and wrong they are .

60) Because you'll still find time for me , even you're busy .

61) Even though how moody i'm , you still manage to make me laugh .

62) Because you give great back messages .

63) Because you teach me many things about life .

64) You let me understand Jesus more .

65) Because you made me look forward to spend the rest of the life with you .

66) You and me together , we can make miracles .

67) You never give up on me , and that's why it keep me going .

68) You made me forget a basturd .

69) You're terrific sense of humor .

70) Everytime i look at you , my heart misses a beat .

71) You are the theme of my dream .

72) When i look in your eyes , i can see your heart .

73) I love to hear your voice .

74) I love the way when you keep in cool when i do something stupid or silly .

75) I love the way you treasure the gifts i give you .

76) I like the way you laugh non stop when i doing something silly .

77) I love your love for God .

78) You respect my decision .

79) I love the way you kiss me .

80) I love the way how cute you are when you get nervous . ><

81) You're always in my mind .

82) You made me a wonderful tomorrow .

83) I love your personality .

84) I love your little silly lame jokes .

85) I love the fact that you want to be with me and the only me .

86) I wants to make your sister a good impression of me .

87) I wants to make my mother a good impression of you .

88) I wants to form a family with you .

89) I wanna first see you when i wake up every morning .

90) I wants to take a sunset picture with you .

91) I wants to shout to the whole wide world that you're a robber that stole my heart .

92) I love how my hands fit in yours .

93) I love the way we finish each other's sentence .

94) You made our relationship so easy !

95) I love the way you give me a massage when i'm tired .

96) I wants to do alot of things more for you .

97) I love how handsome you are to me .

98) I love the way when you call me .

99) You always can see when i'm hiding things from you .

100) I love the fact that i'll love you THE REST OF MY LIFE . <3

You're the first guy i spend 1hour plus thinking and writing this 100reasons for .

You worth making me to wait everything .

You're my one and only .

I love you dear . ;)

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Okay last night i can't sleep well .

I got a very horrible nightmare wtf .

I dream that I BROKE UP WITH DEAR DEAR .

Gosh , stupid dream .

And i remember in my dream i was messaging him ,

And there was this particular message he sent me ,

' My menu , i choose what i want '

It's like saying , this is his choice , only he can choose , not me .

I really cry like fuck . (In the dream)

Then i remember why the hell i was in Tampanies mall .

Then i shout very loud ( In real life =_= )

Then my mother beat my butt , then i wake up .

I actually forgotten what i shout already .

I think my mum remember it .

Forget it , then i was like so scared ?

Then first thing i do is ,

Message dear dear , and ask him not to leave me . T.T

I can't really imagine the day without him seriously .

And i still attitude him everyday .

Now i know why i got this kind of dreams .

That dream was really telling me how would you be like if i'm living without him .

This teaches me to cherish what i have ,

Before it's too late .

I cried ! Now still . :'(

Okay nevermind , i shall wait for dear dear to wake up and later faster meet him .

I want to give him a very tight and big hug . :')

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Hey there !

Just back from my event with my friends .

Today suppose to go west mall , but at the end we go Yishun .

Because samuel can't go too far , he need go somewhere else .

Today got me , dear , samuel , haishan , james , jiaqing , kenneth , ethel , jialing , zhixian and carine .

We went to play alot and joke alot .

We even gossips . ^^

Had KFC again ! Gosh , this week is my fast food week ? FML .

Growing fatter .

Thanks kenneth bro for catching a piglet for me .

This time it's medium size de , very cute . :)

I wanna workkk ! But can't find , life sucks .

Okay it's so long since i'm been saying life sucks again .

But it really do sucks yeah .

My mood is getting abit sucky when i saw somethings .

I really gets very angry .

Now i started to hate her again .

Copy cat still say people copy .

Snatch away sisters nevermind , now i don't need it .

Knn , i give up totally on you both .

Sisters ? What's that .

No sisters will last . I don't need you both to come back to me anymore .

Let's 3 be just friends .

I swear i'll never regret making this decision .

I swear .

Kbye .

Thursday, December 1, 2011
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40 facts about you . (Part 1)

1) You're a sweet talker .

2) You've single eyelid , but the first hour when you wake up , you've double eyelid .

3) After you play pump , or run , your lips will turn very cold .

4) You always wake up in a standard timing at 10 - 11 .

5) You can't take spicy .

6) Your ears will turn red once i touches them .

7) You've vampire tooth .

8) You're very good in BU .

9) You hate talking to people and they didn't reply you .

10) You flirts me always .

11) You play well in Jubeat .

12) You'll get very quiet when you're tired or bored .

13) You care your face very well and clean .

14) The shortest time you bath takes you 9mins .

15) You'll get cold in cinema .

16) You never snored when you sleep .

17) You always fail to fast .

18) You hate me talking too close to guys .

19) You get jealous easily , and it's cute .

20) You don't like pickles .

21) You need ketchup when you eat KFC crispy chicken .

22) Small drinks to you is not enough , at least a medium ones .

23) You love cats .

24) You'll get cold easily once it rains .

25) You love purple .

26) You can addicted to games easily .

27) You're very naughty .

28) Playful boy .

29) You know very little things about the world , and that needs me to teach you.

30) You think too much for sometimes .

31) Your eyes are attractive .

32) You're friendly to everyone .

33) You're kind and likes to help .

34) You like Domo .

35) You scared tickles .

36) You thinks that guys having twitter is very gay .

37) If you woke up at 8plus or 9plus in the morning , you'll go back to sleep till 12 .

38) You love to joke alot .

39) You play routines and singles well .

40) Your lips are soft .

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Alright , i'm back for blogging . :)

I don't know why , because i sees people surround me blogs EVERYDAY .

So i think i should also had this type of habit ? ;/

But anyway , i've never touch blog for months .

Okay , you must be wondering wheres the sister column right ?

It's gone . Gone . Goneeee .

Okay i don't wanna say this anymore .

2days back was my 6month with my boyfriend ,

He's sweet okay , and we did changed alot for each other .

That's so cool .

Today we're going to West mall for the new Pro 2 machine perhaps .

I don't know how many people will go anyway .

I don't know why i thinks that today would be a bored dayyyyyy .

I'm so bored noww , i got nothing to do ~

Going out with mum to eat soon , then later dear dear come find me .

Should i bring a couple of clothes out ?

And towel ? I very lazy bring bag siaaaaa ! Kns , okay today is my lazy day .

But i still have to go .

Bullshyt yo .

Miss my friends and most probably i miss my dear .

Wondering is he pigging now . <3

Okay i go out first .

I just came here to revive my blog , that's all .

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee . ;)

Owner ,

CAROLINE.LJM ♥

16 this year , don't really intro much;
Don't judge me if you don't know me well;
Having an bad attitude & is changing slowly;

Currently, i'm attached;
To SEBASTIAN.OKS, at 3005110913; ♥

He changed my life , and myself too .
We plays pump , jubeat , music gun gun , max tune , audition , maple , l4d and alot together .
We're so in loved ! And now he's my longest boyfriend i ever had .
We've break each other's longest record! <3
It's all started with the 5arrows;

Mastermind ,

What's love?
It's just something that is extra in your life,
I don't believe anything truly,
But i rather just ignore the facts.
Life is what you get,
Life is short, do whatever you think is right.
Don't let a dead person to judge you.
You're smart enough to think through,
Learn to let go, don't cling on it as the others might be hurt.