I don't know what am i thinking recently this few days.

This are coming into my mind consistently.

I don't wanna interfere anything else now.

I only know that, wanna find someone that love each other and last.

But it seems like very hard, why is that so?

Gosh, i want everything to be fine.

Why can't i?

Now this two guys are in my mind.

I wanna get rid one them soon,

Before chalet, let's make a deal.

These few days didn't came to post yeh.

Things happening around consistently, simply can't finish.

Anyway, i've never thought of him alr.

Cause he says, friends forever.

Then i mean it, i'm not his type.

I don't even suit him at all, why?

I don't know why either, i really hope God would give me an answer.

Today went out per normal.

Since i skip my previous activities, then i think today also skip bah.

I get jealous when i know that he text her and whatever about them.

And also jealous cause she post on her wall, i don't know did he.

But i don't care.

He ran to his sub account when he's avoiding this matter.

Anyway, i've no rights to say him.

He's nothing to me, nothing.

I tell him i forget him and be friends forever.

But i can't, this promise were not kept.

He hurt me deeply, and i love him the most.

My one and only.

Gosh, i just gonna love him and care him in silent.

As i said, as long as he's happy.

I'm happy too, what's the difference being together?

This photo in my facebook got 140 people likes .

Haha , the description was nice though .

Yesterday went out with brandon , darling , sweetlove , yvonne and jiaqing .

Go to cine and play pump 2 .

We tried on a new style call bunny hop .

4 people play , i got upload the video at facebook . Haha .

Was a fun day bah , but went home quite early .

Reach home , use comp .

He told me something and show me a link .

Envy how sweet is he and his ex .

Wow , their post made me cried .

I don't know the tears is represent how touch it is ,

Or how jealous and sad i'm .

Well , i don't feel like asking this anymore .

This morning , my exam all very cui .

First is chemistry , i sleep and empty everything .

Second is maths , 2hour paper , i sleep for 1hour and 45mins .

I didn't know that i can even dream for that particular time ,

Today's weather is very hot , don't know what happen to singapore .

But morning 8-8:30 was cold cause it's raining ,

Now you see the floor doesn't even seems like being rain .

I'm just so sad now .

Don't know what am i thinking .

Today's plan was all cui again , thanks to someone .

I don't feel like mentioning names , i'm not as bad as how you are .

And i guess his feeling annoyed by me .

Alright then , i shall keep myself disappear for this time being .

Today went out with pump people ,

Met darling at ave 8 first , then go sweetlove house .

After that go amk pump meet them , saw valerie and tianxin .

Then play awhile , boyfriend came .

Then many people came , was keep playing and playing .

And off our way to hougang plaza .

They all keep deesiao me and boyfriend ,

By that time i still don't know how he feel .

After that we went for kbox , but never go in .

Then we go pool instead , after a few games .

Something happen , abit emo .

Went out to cry abit , he doesn't know i think .

Then we went down to talk ,

Although the result don't really good , but i just wants him to be happy ,

And live without stress ,

That's all i want , i promise to be sweet to him ,

To be gentle to him unlike my ex ,

I swear i'm gonna treat him the best of all i have .

I love the way he is , he's stupid in a cute way .

And all his action was very cool .

I hope he's not avoiding me ,

And i'll be the most happiest girl in the world ,

I don't ask much , as long as he's happy . (:

Today went out to amk nebo to study after school after i reach home .

Meet brandon to study , he teach me alot .

And make me laugh .

Slowly , sweetlove and darling came in .

Making alot of noise inside , okay drop this subject .

Went in pump after studying , saw her ,

She give me a very black face , i felt so guilty .

But i hope she's really alright , or she knows something ?

Justin came , told him something .

He say he wanna help me , but i scared it might not be happen .

Play alot , getting high and crazy .

After tt , we left that place .

Go walk walk , then go a playground .

I first time go , lol .

Then play the swing , slide and alot of things .

5 people like mad , making each other .

Lol , then sweetlove and darling cab home .

I bus home , justin and brandon accompany me t bus stop ,

Then when i took the bus , quietly .

To my house .

Now i'm asking some kind of question , and i have a bad feeling ..

Hope this is not another fake h o p e .

Today didn't really went out since i go home .

Before that , after school went to cut my fringe and behind at ave8 with jiasin and kelly.

Then go hougang point take my photos ,

went mac to talk and eat ,

Till 3 then go home .

Went home , use comp .

Suddenly felt very sad because kelly told me something .

Then off my comp and went to bed to lie down .

Crying and crying while on phone with emily and kelly .

They keep cheering me up , but i did not .

Awaiting for his message , and my phone was silent all the way .

Tears fall more and more , and i can do nothing .

I kup their call and went to sleep ,

But i couldn't , his image was flashing all over the place .

Recall on what he told kelly , it makes me feel like dying .

When i woke up , after bath .

Saw his message , unfortunately , is kelly ask him to message .

I wasn't happy after all , because is not what he wants willingly .

This feeling sucks to max , do he even understand .

I wanna drop this subject ,

This photo is what i just edited ,

040511 is the date we three being together ,

And never be apart . (:

Was back with a new day with kelly and emily .

Went go study first with a group of people .

He's cold to me today , but didn't bother much .

Our ' study ' was indeed a study .

We went to pump instead , so we didn't study until .

Reach there , saw sebas erzi at there .

Deesiao each other , playing , training .

Today brandon got a what singing thing , whatever it is ,

Good luck all the best , (:

Jasmine went home , so never meet till her .

Today pump was rather quiet , no people sia .

So we decided to go nebo once again .

Emily apply for membership , and so funny huh .

Eat deserts there , and drawing here and there .

We created , emiline , kemily and caroly .

That was so cool , then we went back to take neoprints .

Although it's abit fail , but i think we should take another time .

After neoprints , back to pump then go down .

Bought cakes , three different cakes .

And cab to emily's house downstairs .

Eating , heart to heart .

Till going 11 , then we all went off .

What another memorable day . (:

I was very angry when you say me those things ,

I was very hurt when you told me those ,

Do you know what am i thinking ?

How i was feeling ?

No you don't , i'm not that kind of person you thought okay ?

You made me disappointed , and i feel like crying now .

Today never go school, went out and watch movie.

I got something special, which i got it the first time.

It's a SK jewelry necklace which cost $200.

This was the first time, really.

I'm very happy, but also very confuse at the same time.

I really don't know what i want, this isn't what i expected.

But at the end, i choose to just accept what i have first.

And watch one step at a time.

I hope this was just all a dream, it's kind of stress having this kind of things happen on me.

Watched ' Death bell 2 ' , M18.

Guess how i go in? Don't tell you. LOL.

After that go working place eat something , then go home.

Slept for 2hours, wake up.

Lazy go pump liao, daddy say tomorrow meet.

Now chatting with brandon, later maybe going there with him.

Okay i go bath le, post next time bah.

Anyway, today abit disappointed with him yeah.

He like say le never do, aiya nevermind.

I can't judge him, he's no one to me.

So, just kept quiet bah.

He also won't come to this blog and see,

So yeah, write for fun.

End.

Woots i'm back.

Today was a tired day perhaps.

Morning came back from sweetlove house,

Then go take thing with mother till 12plus.

Come back, slept till 4.

Then message sweetlove and darling to meet.

Went to meet them at hougang green first,

Cause darling want buy contact lens,

So we pei her, then took bus to hougang mall.

Went to library to meet fenglong and kenny.

They fucking concentrate.

We talk awhile jiu go liao, cab to amk.

Reach there, no people. We're the first.

Then justin, brandon and brandon's girlf came.

We all started to play dual and etc.

Then ting and valerie came,

Battles all around, argues also all over the place.

Having great fun there, then we went to eat.

Chat, laugh, eat, drink.

This is what girls do!

HAHA, then text with him all along.

Sweetlove also texting him, haha.

Is she happy? Guess so. (:

Then cab back to darling's house downstairs.

Talk heart to heart for awhile, then she left.

Left me and liting, then took bus back home.

Now mum's nagging beside me.

Tomorrow not going school bah, going out.

Lots of things to do, another busy day.

Okay nights.

Just back from toning of two days, okay not really two days.

First day is go channel's birthday with sweetlove.

We reach there about 5plus on Saturday,

But we didn't plan to ton at there, thought of going home at around 11.

So we went there, took 403 find the stupid circle road.

Feng long go bus stop fetch us, with his friend Kenny and a Malay guy.

Forget his name already. ;x

Then we walk in slowly, finally we reach the chalet room.

Saw channel inside the room using her laptop.

Then talk here and there, 6plus liao.

Catering food is ready, so i'm like a hungry ghost.

I go eat alot, LOL.

Then sweetlove, fenglong and Kenny say i pig. Tsk.

After that we went down to BBQ pit to help out.

When we went down, saw the guys are hardly starting on the fire.

Haha, i help them BBQ also.

But then, i was list as the maid.

Cb hor? Sweetlove was list as the butter girl,

Because she is the one that help us to spread the butter on the food.

Then fenglong say he was thirsty and hungry, ask me help him take catering food.

I went up with sweetlove to take, i take alot, like feeding pig.

HAHA. When i came down, they like never drink for few years.

Was so cute lahh, anyway, i continue with the BBQ.

Then when i was done with one food, i go give them first.

Know why? Cause i'm full. LOL.

Fenglong and me is feeding each other alot of times,

But got one time when fenglong is feeding me the drink,

The Malay guy go ask a weird question,

' Is that BABI? ' Then i was like laughing, but the si fenglong still pouring the water.

Make me spill everything, tsk.

Then half way, it's raining.

We all back up everything and faster went up.

We eat AGAIN, then it's around 10plus.

Fenglong ask me to stay overnight, cause it's late already.

I scared is me or sweetlove either one cannot.

But at last we tried. However, both of us also can! :D

So happy? Then sweetlove and i was like so hyper.

Laughing non-stop. Everyone was like looking at us.

At night time around 1plus, Kenny and fenglong was studying.

Weird right? Chalet study? Bobian they express.

Damn scared on exams.

So they ask me and sweetlove to sleep.

We starting say okay, sleep jiu sleep.

But at last, when the moment we saw each other face,

The laughter will start and non-stop.

Kenny wasn't easy get distracted, but fenglong is.

Sweetlove was sleeping beside Kenny, i was beside fenglong.

They plug in ear piece listening to songs,

Then we two go disturb them, but they ask us want listen anot.

So both of us got one of their ear piece.

Then after that, they say they want to go out for a scroll.

Then we all go, me, sweetlove, Kenny, fenglong and Joel.

We walk on the beach seaside, and it was cold, fenglong lend me his jacket.

We was walking throughout the darkness.

Kenny lend sweetlove his jacket too.

So we walk two by two, two behind, two in front.

The Joel was like emo? One person.

Then we walk to playground, sweetlove cried.

LOL, cause they keep deesiao.

We walk back to room, and sleep for like 1hour plus.

Fenglong never sleep, cause he go out for a drink.

We all decide to watch the sunrise at 7, so we went out at 6plus.

Fenglong was abit drunk, so he hold on to me.

In case he fall down, then we guide each other.

And reached the seaside, the sunrise abit.

Unfortunately, the stupid cloud go cover it up!

So we nothing do, i go draw hearts all around the sand.

And write things on it.

Stupid sweetlove go write ' Carol is a dog. '

And she ran, cb right? Tsk.

We all went back, and sleep again.

Got two idiots snoring, guess who?

Fenglong and Kenny. They ask us to wake them up at 8:30am.

But when i wake him up, he elbow me accidentally without knowing.

Then at last they wake up at 10plus, i told him he elbow me.

So he keep say sorry and rub my face.

So cute of him, then we went to eat mac for breakfast.

And we played ddr at white sand, after that went back to the room and help back up.

Back up already, we all went home liao.

So as the guys went back too, me and sweetlove miss them.

And those memories, sian.

Okay, i went home and bath, and ask mummy can i ton again.

She say tomorrow don't too late come back.

OMG, freedom. :D

Then bath le, go sweetlove house find her.

Emily reach there liao, so we went down to cab to amk.

But stupid, Sunday cab alot tio hired.

Alot people snatching from us,

Then finally we got it! We go amk pump.

Saw our friends there, one by one come liao.

But i 9plus need go somewhere else, after that i 10plus go back sweetlove house.

As i promise to ton with her, before that we went to buy dinner.

Then go her house eat liao, then go room.

Saying about ton, i cmi.

When i sit on the bed, i started to sleep.

Cause too tired liao, i only sleep 2hours for 2days.

So i sleep till the morning while sweetlove use her laptop.

Middle of the night, it's so hot.

She keep kicking me and wanna push me down the bed.

Asshole right? Then 7 i wake her up say i want go home first.

Then now i'm at home! :D

Later going out with mother at 10plus and suibian see furniture.

Then afternoon might be meeting fenglong and Kenny for studying!

Hope they can make it, okay now i think i gonna go for a rest first.

Later night free then post bah. (: